scarted thoughts about love

what is it that we are doing?
being your flattered face unconditionally;
my striated understanding is covered by a cloud of confusion:
my well thoghts are out of reasoning;

i thought i knew that i would be loved;
how difficult for a fish outside the stream;
how my confident was wiped away by a hurt spirit;
how my courage was null and void;

if remembered an old man saying;
many are things we will taste but not to have;
i argue day and night to congruently convince myself;
i love without a reason;

i asked myself a question that i could not answer;
i kneel down to raise high;
in timidity and fear i stood with confident ;
i was axed to be perplex of love;

come what may i'm going on;
my past you remain in the past;
i am the govener of myself;
i am the pioneer of my future;
i will continue to love without fear like then.

a sad song

i could not believe it;
i passed the fig tree;
the little bird whistled at me;
the scattered and tartered melody opened my mouth;

it was a man singing;
the song of pain and sadness;
i asked what good does it feel to sing;
but he said mumbling if i could turn;
go back to my mother's womb;

life is less of agony and melancholy;
my ladida of life has shrinked;
my longing to see tommorow slipped;
i wish i can run and never come back;
for life is a mystery to experience death.

she likes but not to love

like the sun rays waking me up;
like the rabbit sneaking in the holes;
the doves flying in the sky;
so i feel this our .....like

i used to shake and move;
my lips were not to move;
my eyes always enjoying to see you;
i creeped my own understanding;
i lost myself in to you;

my emotions runs high when she said yep;
my hormones took me over ;
she clutched me to her bossom;
i melted in to her lips;

i said i can, can i..?
please tell me if is a destiny if not fate.
i'm lost in the darkness of ....like

soldier's heart

on a crooked road i travelled;
on a bumby road yes i travelled;
i fought with my heart and spirit;
the fight of dignity and life;

for freedom i fought;
for liberation of oneself i did fight;
you may have not noticed my works;
like a drop of blood in an ocean yes i fought;

my parents death became their friends;
my children were engulfed by strangers;
my heart was ripped out of my body;
i felt like i lost fingers while having a weapon;

i will continue to fight for my liberation;
pain and anger passed but i fought;
i stood to realize the grieve of my people;
i never wanted to avenge but to punish;

i lost all i had but not my intergrity;
yes i can not see but my future is bright;
my hands were cut but worry is far from me;
all i wanted is my freedom;
freedom to live without fear;
freedom to express myself;
freedom to love who ever i want to;
i have not lost my people they are in my heart.

A poor man's prayer

oh lord i pray that i may see tomorrow;
oh lord i pray to feel the sunray of tomorrow;
my pray lord is to be delivered from the sorrows of this world;
my life seems not fit in this world;

i am not praying to be rich but to live;
i am not praying to have fame but to have knowledge;
oh lord if life is a game i resist to loose;
oh lord do the same to those who are of my nature;

i stil refuse to pray to aquire the golds and diamonds of this world;
i pray that i should be content with what i have;
i pray to be content of the inner person in me;
i pray to fulfill your plans as you odered;
i pray that my will to live should persists;
i pray that i should love without doubt;

food and drinks are not of priority;
water will always quench thirst;
food will alway fill the stomach;
i also pray to reach beyond my thoughts;
i know and i believe i'm heard;
oh lord help me to know myself and those around me.

my beatiful wife

i love my wife;
she is my friend;
she is a good friend of mine;
she take care of me like a cat to kittens;

she is my soul mate;
we are never a fate;
she opened her gate of love for me and only me;
for eternity we were made for;
my beautiful wife;

how difficult life is without you;
i can not live without you;
how impposible for me to laugh without you;
my existance is of no value if you are not by side;
my beautiful wife i love you for being yourself;

you complete my circle of life;
you have perfected me as a weak man;
you have put a smile on my face;
you are my helper and you are my wife;
how blessed i am to have you;

for many a crying;
many are not settled;
many are in hell;
but you always make sure that i'm in your arms;
thank you for being such a wonderful wife;
thank you for being my only wife.

defeated

in my mist of my battles;
i fought like a soldier;
like a king i wanted to protect my own world;
i fought until my breath quickel;

i always saw victory in my battles;
i always saw myself on top;
but you came to fight me;
yes you did cause you knew me;

when i tried to hit hard you said "its me"
you a woman who knew what she wanted;
you defeated me in the battle of love;
i was sure that i was strong but before you i was not;

why do you come to face me;
i thought i will never see you;
but you always come back like a summer rain;
it remembered me when i met in the sun-a- train;
yes you defeated me a lot;
in the matters of the heart you did;

poverty part 1

you the human kind enemy;
you are more pandemic than aids;
the greatest has tried to abolish you;
but you still persists;

you are the pain in our stomachs;
you are the wrath in our own world;
many you have taken away;
many you have killed;

why are a thorn in our people;
why dont you leave us alone;
the rich and richer had joined hands;
the poor get more poorer;

but still you multiply like roaches;
you are a disaster to human kind;
you are never kind to us;
i had a dream to follow;
i had a voyage to take;
my goal are not clear;
all because of your interventions;

i had a little thought of a great family;
but you manifested your self in me;
my dreams are shattered;
my grand father made tried to uplift;
my mother tried even hader but you are sturbon;

can you leave my family alone;
i pledge my life to fight you to my death

poverty part 1

you the human kind enemy;

you are more pandemic than aids;

the greatest has tried to abolish you;

but you still persists;

you are the pain in our stomachs;

you are the wrath in our own world;

many you have taken away;

many you have killed;

why are a thorn in our peole;why dont you leave us alone;the rich and richer had joined hands;the poor get more poorer;but still you multiply like roaches;you are a disaster to human kind;you are never kind to us;i had a dream to follow;i had a voyage to take;my goal are not clear;all because of your interventions;i had a little thought of a great family;but you manifested your self in me;my dreams are shattered;my grand father made tried to uplift;my mother tried even hader but you are sturbon;can you leave my family alone;i pledge my life to fight you to my death

judge me is fine 1

i did what i did yes you can persecute me;
yes i am wearing what i have;
i do eat if i am lucky;
i sleep well if i am lucky;
judge me is fine;
for what you should tell me;

many have said that i'm poor;
i disagreed and i still do;
i was never created for food;
or i was never created to be a model of clothes;
i am content at hear;
judge me is fine;
do not forget to judge yourself first;

many take look at me and give me a pity smile;
some open their well forgged mouth to smile;
how do you judge if you are not supposed to;
how do you turn up somebody's pots;
how impossible is to love without trust;
judge me of my colour is fine;

many have judged and many will still do;
judge me on what i have;
yes what i have....my values and principles;
judge me is fine on what i am saying;
for if you think i am poor you are wrong;
i am a millionare of healthy words;
judge me is fine......
you will not get what you want;

You are Beautiful...To Me

To me you are beautiful;
To me you are wonderful;
Your beauty shines through your smile;
Your eyes makes me run for a couple of miles;
You are beautiful to me... yes you are to me;

Many have looked;
But me i'm hooked;
Woman you are beautiful;
I praise the thinkin pot of my gorgeous woman;
Yes you are beautiful... to me

Some says you are not;
But for you beauty was never in the looks;
For i see beauty in your spirit;
I see her beauty in her manners;
You are beauty yourself;
You resemble an african queen;

They might have all the looks is fine;
But my beautiful woman has manners;
My woman is an intellect;
Beautiful are those who can think for themselves;
Beautiful are those who can respect others as people;
beautiful are them that can love without doubt;
You are beautiful.......to me yes you are.

my bokke

i ran with ball no one caught me;
i ran and jumped as a bokke;
in mind i saw trimph;
many saw the pain i was feeling;

i saw african pride, i saw victory;
it was never easy to roll the stone;
it is embelling to cease the proned cloud;
i the bokke made it;
like a king protected his land;
like a rabbit i ran for my life;

i the bokke had flied to with pains and blood;
sweat and blood was never a concern;
wheat and brood was on the vein for the table;
i rose to the finishing line;
i defeated but i was never defeated;

i brought it where it belong;
we put it where it stays;
it belong to the african soil;
it is south african.
go bokke go.

maporana quotes

if i made it this far i'm ready to go all the way no matter how things can be

maporana quote of the day 2

if i made it this far i'm ready to go all the way no matter how tough things can be

forgiveness

i said it after i was hurt;
i cried my eye to dryness;
i said where is my mother;
i asked him that my father;

it was their agony and their fights;
it was the quest to explore their horizons;
it was the quest to taste the other waters;
people are never satisfied with what they have;

what ever we have we overlook it;
my venture is always for what i dont have;
my jorney to what i want will never end;
she was murdered in the hands of another man;

i saw a bullet through her head shot by her lover, my dad
i sow a seed of hate and anger and pain;
i shouted, i plotted and i did not emerge well;
i found myself in jail because of you ...hate
i was told to forgive i refused;
only when he died i said i wanted to forgive;
only to find that i should have forgiven earlier.

one person of other people

i can not agree to disaagree;
i was created for a purpose;
i never existed but i live;
i was made to believe that i'm inferior;

i looked at myself on a mirror;
my mind said yes you are inferior;
my spirit resisted but i fought myself;
who am i not to know myself;

i was taken out of my own body;
my possesions were never mine;
my understanding and believes were reduced;
who are these strangers in my face;

who are these people i dont know?
why do you course pain to my mother;
why do harvest my fruits of life;
my generation is oppressed;

who is the man with suit and tie in my land;
why do you roar at me in anger;
what did the african daughter do to be slaughtered like a bull;
i want to forgive please teach me how.
please be who you are i will remain myself.

Happiness

happiness is that my feeling;
the feeling that makes me smile;
it elevate me to higher hights;
it open my mind to other;

i feel new every day;
i feel more happy than yesterday;
my moods are of a laughing phase;
my intentions are sound;

happiness the key to good health;
the instrument to conquer the day;
a blessing that is upon my shoulders;
a baton to be passed to my children;

it is with you that i excel;
it is with you that i'm proud;
many dont know the open secret;
that it is happiness that keep us to keep on going;
i claim my happiness to enjoy my life

maporana quote of the day

" have the eyes of the cameleon but never resemble the cameleon"

i salute the nation

i salute the land of the greats;
i salute the land of the masters;
i run to greet the great mountains of the land;
i worship the african soil;

my passion to live is for africa;
my understanding is beyond of intellectuals;
for i praise the nation of Oliver Tambo;
i welcome the nation that embedded in the south;
i pledge my solidarity to the african desire;

it is the land that is rich but yet poor;
it is the land of gold and diamonds but not ours;
the land that feed my stomach but not my brother;
i salute the land of Govan Mbeki;

who are you to come and control the african community;
who are you to leave your chambers and challange fearless beast;
i declare my land the land of milk and honey;
i endorse the spirit and character of the african icon;
who is he if not the mighty beast..Tata
if not the father of this country then who?
if not Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela then who?

many will critisize and many will talk;
nut it is true of the mouth to talk;
i still salute the land of Robert Mugabe;
i still salute my country south africa

the complain

many have talked;
and many are talking;
many have despised;
surely many are still despising;
how cruel is to kill for pleasure;
how evil is to assasinate for fun;

i wanted to live, yes i did;
i wanted to be the best;
i said i can amongst the rest;
but the war of hatred excused my plans;

everyone has seen my goals;
anyone can tell you that he is alive;
my dreams to reach where no one can reach are squashed;
my last hope has deserted my heart;
my well crafted desire has failed

i was hated by the lost rib of my body;
i found it in the mist of dry spirits;
i found the mysterious way to fly;
i dont know what to do?
pls help me

i am stronger

like a lion in the wild i am strong;
i resemble the charector of an african elephant;
i sneak as silent as an bush cheater;
my feet grap the ground when i stand;

the toenados of life came;
the hatred passed away;
the hunger struck;
but at all i stood and i'm strong;

after leaving me you thought i'll be miserable;
after waiting i recieved the grace;
i'm stronger than the racing horse;
i'm stronger than mount everest;

i was hit by a lightning of pain;
but yet i stood;
i was born in the iron fist and in the harshness of Africa;
i was born in the civil war but yet i survived;
the apertheid regime i defeated;

i am stronger than life itself;
yes i am stronger.

you came

you came in to my life and i accepted you;
you came with a pain and i healed you;
you came with hunger and i fed you;
you came slowly to me as a cameleon;
you had your own colours i had mine;

you find me of a mouth full of teeth;
you find me of a month of happines;
you turned to me when life was angry at you;
when your friends did not know you i knew you better;
when you were down i came to offer you a lift up;

you came and bluff when it was tough;
you came and stuff when it was rough;
i knew that it will never be enough;
you came to me when you can't talk;
when you can't walk i walked you;

yes you came in to my life;
you can not remove the handfull of my life;
you cant take what is mine;
you are babaric deeds are haunting you;
your enourmous lies are hunting you;

i gave you my food;
yes i made you a person;
yes you came.

my mother

a woman of true african pride,
my mother
a woman whose there for me,
my mother
i'm glad and thankful of you,

over the years you woke up in morning,
like a man yes you did,
you provided me with love,
you had to think of my well being before yourself,
yes my mother

a woman of a man's character,
a character that give hope,
a true mother indeed,
you raised me even though it was hard,
yes you loved me even though it was tough
yes my mother

poverty struck us like a thunder,
it indeed hit us like a hurricane,
but you stood the test of time,
you are a tried and tested mother,
the woman of compassion,
yes you are my mother,
i will love you no matter what
yes you are my mother.

you betrayed me

i'm sitting alone crying,
i'm weaping like a cub that is abandoned,
i'm crying because i feel empty,
i said i trust and love,
but my trust and love are thrown back at me after 4 years


my perfect match has denied me,
my deam wife ha deserted me,
my loyalty was never treasured,
my values were undermined,
yes i am betrayed ,

my woman i used to be proud of you,
i would sing to the birds about you,
i would cherish when we are together,
you sneaked behind my back,
but my eyes were huge to see,

you left my heart with a hole,
my heartless heart is broken,
a spear of pain strangled my love,
you went to dine with the dogs of the wild,
you batrayed me while i'm the one who made you,

you left me without a goodbye song,
you compromised your believes,
your principles you shut,
you love men a lot,
but they love not,
they want to go under the white sheet with you only,
why.........why ......you batrayed me yes you did

you lie

it come upon you,
it is written on your forehead,
you are shaking as if you have seen a ghost,
you are mumbling like a sttuter,
because you lie

i said tell me the truth,
i said tell me what is true,
for it can free you,
but you decided to lie,

i trusted you with my life,
i had given you a leap of faith,
my being told me to believe in youmy emotions were always high to see you,
but you lied tome,

i wanted what is best for you,
i comforted you with the wings of love,
i protected you with the shield of faith,
i loved you holisticaly and soulily

and still you lied to me,
i gave you beautiful heads,
you are the mother of my heads,
but you lieyou lied to me

you say he is a friend

i asked but you said is a friend
yes i did ask
what kind of a friend is he
is he a friend you talk to
is he a friend in need

yes i asked but you said is a friend
is he an accidental friend
why a sudden friend
is he harvesting the holy food
is he going under the white sheet with you

you said he is a friend
what kind of friend is that
my spirit is full of anger
i feel lied to a million
my soup is being sipped by a friend

my mind is weak, my manhood is questioned
my integrity as a man is demoted
my lips are sttutering
i said to myself walk tall
but is he a friend,...lying

The Oppressed Mind

i kneel down day by day,
my humanity is been evicted away from me,
i moan and grieve from my stomach,
i can't breath because of you,
you think you are a diamond in the sand,

i feel the melancholy upon my spirit,
colour separated me from my brother,
my carageous broken spirit is still crying for help,
i hated you racism,
throurh you one thought is better than the other,

my creator said there shall be people,
but you invaded our weak minds,
i hate you and i will never appreciate you.

i can and i will shine

i said i will rise and shine,
i said i will stand and conquer,
but you came and inflict a river of pain,
but you came and supress my thoughts,
i tried to talk but you gave me a slap,

i can and i will rise up,
i will rise upon you,
crying shall not be my norm anymore,
i said tomorrow is mine,
but you wanted to take my todays,

you an evil dark hollow hearted,
i was deprived of my basic needs,
you could not give me food when i was starving,
when i grew up in mind,you weakend me
when i talk by courage, you caused me pain
but it gave me strength,

when i see my future, you said i'm nothing
but i got more zeal to be better,
i said i can and i will,
come what may i will be there,
hurt me is fine you will not kill me,
kill me is fine one of me will arise,

i can not afford to suffer,
is this the life we should live,
i am oppressed from my seed,
i can not talk,walk and laugh,
but my future is bright like the summer sun,
i can and i will rise
i shall shine more and more,
for my brothers i will shine.

i said i will rise and conquer,

but you surpressed my thoughts,

you hurt my skin but not my spirit,

i said tomorrow it is mine,

but you wanted to take my todays,

i know i can and i will,

pain and hurt gives me courage,

torture makes me more stronger

I TOLD YOU

i told you but you never listen to me,
i told you but you chosen not to believe me,
i told you but you said i'm crazy,
i told you but you said you are still enjoying,

i said it is painful,it is a monster
i told you that is killing,killing even young kids
i told you that you will suffer you laughed at me,
i said it makes people to be afraid of you,
i told you it makes family desert you,

you told me you are enjoying,
i told you to stop but you refuse,
look at you now, you are weak,you are bones
you said i was jelouse but i was not,

now you are skinny and you are dying,
you did not listen when i said stop,
you were sleeping with everyone like a dog,
now you can not sit,eat and even walk

i told you that is there,
i told you that is bad and sad,
i told you, is too late to believe me,
i told you that AIDS is there.

THE WOMAN

the woman the mother of life,
without you life is cold,
without you i can not show my teeth,
the woman you are my happines,

in your loving i'm comforted,
in your patience i find hope,
in your endurance i stood the test,
without you the world is a doom place,

the woman the mother of the universe,
the beast that protect like a lionless to the cub,
the pain you had was a sign of your power,
power to love and nurture me,
without you i'm not sheltered at heart,

my heart is full of praise and harmony,
my moods are in loving phase,
i praise the woman the giver of life,
the queen of life the rose in the dry field,
the great yet abused and raped,
the lover and wife yet beaten,
the mom yet rejected,

the woman they may not respect you but i do,
they may call you names but i will praise you,
they may beat you but i can only comfort you
the woman the mother of my life

I AM CHEATED

i am cheated, yes i am cheated,
i am robbed of my integrity,
i have lost my respect in another man's hands,
i'm full of rage and embarasment,

i am betrayed by my last hope you my fountain of love,
i'm soaked in the dirty waters of love,
my passion is smoted by hurricane of lies,
yes i am cheated,

the woman has made me a fool,
my feelings were fiddled with,
my heart and patience were tempared with,
i can not hold my tears and hatred,

i said i can love but i buried myself in to pain,
i'm skinny in my heart and i'm rattled in my eyes,
you sold your respect to the pigs of darkness,
i am cheated of life itself,
i thought you are mine an i am yours

only to find that you are also his,
yes i am cheated of good love making,
everytime we kiss i see him in you arms and thighs,
yes this pain is painful,
this pain is not rightful,

yes i am cheated , yes i am cheated ,

About the Activist

Maporana Onismus Nkwana was born in Botlokwa in the Limpopo Provine. He is an activist in his own right, he is also a prolific leader of the Young Communist League, the South African Students Congress(SASCO) and the ANCYL in Medunsa.He is currently studying towards a Bachelor of Dentistry and Surgery (BDS) at the Medunsa Campus of the University of Limpopo. He is the Secretary General of the SRC 2006/2007 of the University of Limpopo. He is the former Chairperson of the YCL Medunsa Branch. He served as the former Deputy Secretary of SASCO Medunsa Branch. A tried and tested cadre of the the Mass Democratic Movement led by the ANC. He is a Director of Dinkwe Productions cc, an events management and publishing company. As an Author he wrote a novel titled LESOGANA LA SEKGALA due to be published soon.

i am what i am

i am the voice of my mother,

i am the son of my father,

i am the helper in the eyes of the helpless,

i am the lion in the jungle,

like a beast i refuse to kneel down to an ant,

i am what i am,

i refuse to surrender myself to racial taboo,

i refuse to live under the backet system life,

i am what i am because of my creator,

i am what i am because of my believe,

love,pain, race and feminism will pass ,

but i refuse to pass,

my life will be a mirror to my brothers,

i am an African,

i am black outside and i am black inside,

my pride defines my thoughts,

my thoughts induce my utterance,

for i am the son of the african sun,

i can not finish to talk without knowing my enemy,

you the thorn in the heart of my people,

you ...you poverty,

my cousins are starving and dying,

let the lord hear my cry,

for the pains and grievience of africa are heavy,

my shoulders are tired,

Aids himself took what i valued more than gold,

that one thing i wanted a million,

that my brother that my sister,

i can not refuse to be mother son,

nor should i refuse to be my father son,

i am what i am ,

i am a prisoner of love,

i raped my self to care about my africa,

i am an african,

i am what i am.