i am stronger

like a lion in the wild i am strong;
i resemble the charector of an african elephant;
i sneak as silent as an bush cheater;
my feet grap the ground when i stand;

the toenados of life came;
the hatred passed away;
the hunger struck;
but at all i stood and i'm strong;

after leaving me you thought i'll be miserable;
after waiting i recieved the grace;
i'm stronger than the racing horse;
i'm stronger than mount everest;

i was hit by a lightning of pain;
but yet i stood;
i was born in the iron fist and in the harshness of Africa;
i was born in the civil war but yet i survived;
the apertheid regime i defeated;

i am stronger than life itself;
yes i am stronger.

you came

you came in to my life and i accepted you;
you came with a pain and i healed you;
you came with hunger and i fed you;
you came slowly to me as a cameleon;
you had your own colours i had mine;

you find me of a mouth full of teeth;
you find me of a month of happines;
you turned to me when life was angry at you;
when your friends did not know you i knew you better;
when you were down i came to offer you a lift up;

you came and bluff when it was tough;
you came and stuff when it was rough;
i knew that it will never be enough;
you came to me when you can't talk;
when you can't walk i walked you;

yes you came in to my life;
you can not remove the handfull of my life;
you cant take what is mine;
you are babaric deeds are haunting you;
your enourmous lies are hunting you;

i gave you my food;
yes i made you a person;
yes you came.

my mother

a woman of true african pride,
my mother
a woman whose there for me,
my mother
i'm glad and thankful of you,

over the years you woke up in morning,
like a man yes you did,
you provided me with love,
you had to think of my well being before yourself,
yes my mother

a woman of a man's character,
a character that give hope,
a true mother indeed,
you raised me even though it was hard,
yes you loved me even though it was tough
yes my mother

poverty struck us like a thunder,
it indeed hit us like a hurricane,
but you stood the test of time,
you are a tried and tested mother,
the woman of compassion,
yes you are my mother,
i will love you no matter what
yes you are my mother.

you betrayed me

i'm sitting alone crying,
i'm weaping like a cub that is abandoned,
i'm crying because i feel empty,
i said i trust and love,
but my trust and love are thrown back at me after 4 years


my perfect match has denied me,
my deam wife ha deserted me,
my loyalty was never treasured,
my values were undermined,
yes i am betrayed ,

my woman i used to be proud of you,
i would sing to the birds about you,
i would cherish when we are together,
you sneaked behind my back,
but my eyes were huge to see,

you left my heart with a hole,
my heartless heart is broken,
a spear of pain strangled my love,
you went to dine with the dogs of the wild,
you batrayed me while i'm the one who made you,

you left me without a goodbye song,
you compromised your believes,
your principles you shut,
you love men a lot,
but they love not,
they want to go under the white sheet with you only,
why.........why ......you batrayed me yes you did

you lie

it come upon you,
it is written on your forehead,
you are shaking as if you have seen a ghost,
you are mumbling like a sttuter,
because you lie

i said tell me the truth,
i said tell me what is true,
for it can free you,
but you decided to lie,

i trusted you with my life,
i had given you a leap of faith,
my being told me to believe in youmy emotions were always high to see you,
but you lied tome,

i wanted what is best for you,
i comforted you with the wings of love,
i protected you with the shield of faith,
i loved you holisticaly and soulily

and still you lied to me,
i gave you beautiful heads,
you are the mother of my heads,
but you lieyou lied to me

you say he is a friend

i asked but you said is a friend
yes i did ask
what kind of a friend is he
is he a friend you talk to
is he a friend in need

yes i asked but you said is a friend
is he an accidental friend
why a sudden friend
is he harvesting the holy food
is he going under the white sheet with you

you said he is a friend
what kind of friend is that
my spirit is full of anger
i feel lied to a million
my soup is being sipped by a friend

my mind is weak, my manhood is questioned
my integrity as a man is demoted
my lips are sttutering
i said to myself walk tall
but is he a friend,...lying

The Oppressed Mind

i kneel down day by day,
my humanity is been evicted away from me,
i moan and grieve from my stomach,
i can't breath because of you,
you think you are a diamond in the sand,

i feel the melancholy upon my spirit,
colour separated me from my brother,
my carageous broken spirit is still crying for help,
i hated you racism,
throurh you one thought is better than the other,

my creator said there shall be people,
but you invaded our weak minds,
i hate you and i will never appreciate you.

i can and i will shine

i said i will rise and shine,
i said i will stand and conquer,
but you came and inflict a river of pain,
but you came and supress my thoughts,
i tried to talk but you gave me a slap,

i can and i will rise up,
i will rise upon you,
crying shall not be my norm anymore,
i said tomorrow is mine,
but you wanted to take my todays,

you an evil dark hollow hearted,
i was deprived of my basic needs,
you could not give me food when i was starving,
when i grew up in mind,you weakend me
when i talk by courage, you caused me pain
but it gave me strength,

when i see my future, you said i'm nothing
but i got more zeal to be better,
i said i can and i will,
come what may i will be there,
hurt me is fine you will not kill me,
kill me is fine one of me will arise,

i can not afford to suffer,
is this the life we should live,
i am oppressed from my seed,
i can not talk,walk and laugh,
but my future is bright like the summer sun,
i can and i will rise
i shall shine more and more,
for my brothers i will shine.

i said i will rise and conquer,

but you surpressed my thoughts,

you hurt my skin but not my spirit,

i said tomorrow it is mine,

but you wanted to take my todays,

i know i can and i will,

pain and hurt gives me courage,

torture makes me more stronger

I TOLD YOU

i told you but you never listen to me,
i told you but you chosen not to believe me,
i told you but you said i'm crazy,
i told you but you said you are still enjoying,

i said it is painful,it is a monster
i told you that is killing,killing even young kids
i told you that you will suffer you laughed at me,
i said it makes people to be afraid of you,
i told you it makes family desert you,

you told me you are enjoying,
i told you to stop but you refuse,
look at you now, you are weak,you are bones
you said i was jelouse but i was not,

now you are skinny and you are dying,
you did not listen when i said stop,
you were sleeping with everyone like a dog,
now you can not sit,eat and even walk

i told you that is there,
i told you that is bad and sad,
i told you, is too late to believe me,
i told you that AIDS is there.

THE WOMAN

the woman the mother of life,
without you life is cold,
without you i can not show my teeth,
the woman you are my happines,

in your loving i'm comforted,
in your patience i find hope,
in your endurance i stood the test,
without you the world is a doom place,

the woman the mother of the universe,
the beast that protect like a lionless to the cub,
the pain you had was a sign of your power,
power to love and nurture me,
without you i'm not sheltered at heart,

my heart is full of praise and harmony,
my moods are in loving phase,
i praise the woman the giver of life,
the queen of life the rose in the dry field,
the great yet abused and raped,
the lover and wife yet beaten,
the mom yet rejected,

the woman they may not respect you but i do,
they may call you names but i will praise you,
they may beat you but i can only comfort you
the woman the mother of my life

I AM CHEATED

i am cheated, yes i am cheated,
i am robbed of my integrity,
i have lost my respect in another man's hands,
i'm full of rage and embarasment,

i am betrayed by my last hope you my fountain of love,
i'm soaked in the dirty waters of love,
my passion is smoted by hurricane of lies,
yes i am cheated,

the woman has made me a fool,
my feelings were fiddled with,
my heart and patience were tempared with,
i can not hold my tears and hatred,

i said i can love but i buried myself in to pain,
i'm skinny in my heart and i'm rattled in my eyes,
you sold your respect to the pigs of darkness,
i am cheated of life itself,
i thought you are mine an i am yours

only to find that you are also his,
yes i am cheated of good love making,
everytime we kiss i see him in you arms and thighs,
yes this pain is painful,
this pain is not rightful,

yes i am cheated , yes i am cheated ,

About the Activist

Maporana Onismus Nkwana was born in Botlokwa in the Limpopo Provine. He is an activist in his own right, he is also a prolific leader of the Young Communist League, the South African Students Congress(SASCO) and the ANCYL in Medunsa.He is currently studying towards a Bachelor of Dentistry and Surgery (BDS) at the Medunsa Campus of the University of Limpopo. He is the Secretary General of the SRC 2006/2007 of the University of Limpopo. He is the former Chairperson of the YCL Medunsa Branch. He served as the former Deputy Secretary of SASCO Medunsa Branch. A tried and tested cadre of the the Mass Democratic Movement led by the ANC. He is a Director of Dinkwe Productions cc, an events management and publishing company. As an Author he wrote a novel titled LESOGANA LA SEKGALA due to be published soon.

i am what i am

i am the voice of my mother,

i am the son of my father,

i am the helper in the eyes of the helpless,

i am the lion in the jungle,

like a beast i refuse to kneel down to an ant,

i am what i am,

i refuse to surrender myself to racial taboo,

i refuse to live under the backet system life,

i am what i am because of my creator,

i am what i am because of my believe,

love,pain, race and feminism will pass ,

but i refuse to pass,

my life will be a mirror to my brothers,

i am an African,

i am black outside and i am black inside,

my pride defines my thoughts,

my thoughts induce my utterance,

for i am the son of the african sun,

i can not finish to talk without knowing my enemy,

you the thorn in the heart of my people,

you ...you poverty,

my cousins are starving and dying,

let the lord hear my cry,

for the pains and grievience of africa are heavy,

my shoulders are tired,

Aids himself took what i valued more than gold,

that one thing i wanted a million,

that my brother that my sister,

i can not refuse to be mother son,

nor should i refuse to be my father son,

i am what i am ,

i am a prisoner of love,

i raped my self to care about my africa,

i am an african,

i am what i am.