who am i?

i cried is enough;
my eyes are sore and painful;
i hate to realise that i lost my faith;
i hate to understand that i lost myself;
who i am is not me for myself i'm far way from me;

i wanted to know my destiny;
i needed to know my believe;
my ways always lead me to shame;
my utterance make me a loompant;
my friends and enemies bond because of me;

who am i not to know myself;
some said i'm a creation of God;
others said mahommed is my father;
while others say that i'm of hindu by blood;
who am i for i dont know myself.