why me?

my heart is crying;
crying for my seed;
my tears fill the oceans;
to whom should i ask this question;
why me?

what wrong have i done that others did not do;
that is for my ancestors;
what huge sin have i commited that this punishment come upon me;
i can not say i am angry because i'm not;
i thought of having a nice family;
a nice wife and beautiful kids;
all that is taken away;
why me?

i feel nothing like a man;
for what is a man without heads in his house;
my enemies are mocking me and they laugh when i pass;
they call me foe who cant preserve himself;
why all these things uponme?

i hate to say what i'm feeling now;
i hate to pray in agony;
i hate to lay my life for shame from friends and family;
why me?