scarted thoughts about love

what is it that we are doing?
being your flattered face unconditionally;
my striated understanding is covered by a cloud of confusion:
my well thoghts are out of reasoning;

i thought i knew that i would be loved;
how difficult for a fish outside the stream;
how my confident was wiped away by a hurt spirit;
how my courage was null and void;

if remembered an old man saying;
many are things we will taste but not to have;
i argue day and night to congruently convince myself;
i love without a reason;

i asked myself a question that i could not answer;
i kneel down to raise high;
in timidity and fear i stood with confident ;
i was axed to be perplex of love;

come what may i'm going on;
my past you remain in the past;
i am the govener of myself;
i am the pioneer of my future;
i will continue to love without fear like then.

a sad song

i could not believe it;
i passed the fig tree;
the little bird whistled at me;
the scattered and tartered melody opened my mouth;

it was a man singing;
the song of pain and sadness;
i asked what good does it feel to sing;
but he said mumbling if i could turn;
go back to my mother's womb;

life is less of agony and melancholy;
my ladida of life has shrinked;
my longing to see tommorow slipped;
i wish i can run and never come back;
for life is a mystery to experience death.

she likes but not to love

like the sun rays waking me up;
like the rabbit sneaking in the holes;
the doves flying in the sky;
so i feel this our .....like

i used to shake and move;
my lips were not to move;
my eyes always enjoying to see you;
i creeped my own understanding;
i lost myself in to you;

my emotions runs high when she said yep;
my hormones took me over ;
she clutched me to her bossom;
i melted in to her lips;

i said i can, can i..?
please tell me if is a destiny if not fate.
i'm lost in the darkness of ....like

soldier's heart

on a crooked road i travelled;
on a bumby road yes i travelled;
i fought with my heart and spirit;
the fight of dignity and life;

for freedom i fought;
for liberation of oneself i did fight;
you may have not noticed my works;
like a drop of blood in an ocean yes i fought;

my parents death became their friends;
my children were engulfed by strangers;
my heart was ripped out of my body;
i felt like i lost fingers while having a weapon;

i will continue to fight for my liberation;
pain and anger passed but i fought;
i stood to realize the grieve of my people;
i never wanted to avenge but to punish;

i lost all i had but not my intergrity;
yes i can not see but my future is bright;
my hands were cut but worry is far from me;
all i wanted is my freedom;
freedom to live without fear;
freedom to express myself;
freedom to love who ever i want to;
i have not lost my people they are in my heart.

A poor man's prayer

oh lord i pray that i may see tomorrow;
oh lord i pray to feel the sunray of tomorrow;
my pray lord is to be delivered from the sorrows of this world;
my life seems not fit in this world;

i am not praying to be rich but to live;
i am not praying to have fame but to have knowledge;
oh lord if life is a game i resist to loose;
oh lord do the same to those who are of my nature;

i stil refuse to pray to aquire the golds and diamonds of this world;
i pray that i should be content with what i have;
i pray to be content of the inner person in me;
i pray to fulfill your plans as you odered;
i pray that my will to live should persists;
i pray that i should love without doubt;

food and drinks are not of priority;
water will always quench thirst;
food will alway fill the stomach;
i also pray to reach beyond my thoughts;
i know and i believe i'm heard;
oh lord help me to know myself and those around me.

my beatiful wife

i love my wife;
she is my friend;
she is a good friend of mine;
she take care of me like a cat to kittens;

she is my soul mate;
we are never a fate;
she opened her gate of love for me and only me;
for eternity we were made for;
my beautiful wife;

how difficult life is without you;
i can not live without you;
how impposible for me to laugh without you;
my existance is of no value if you are not by side;
my beautiful wife i love you for being yourself;

you complete my circle of life;
you have perfected me as a weak man;
you have put a smile on my face;
you are my helper and you are my wife;
how blessed i am to have you;

for many a crying;
many are not settled;
many are in hell;
but you always make sure that i'm in your arms;
thank you for being such a wonderful wife;
thank you for being my only wife.

defeated

in my mist of my battles;
i fought like a soldier;
like a king i wanted to protect my own world;
i fought until my breath quickel;

i always saw victory in my battles;
i always saw myself on top;
but you came to fight me;
yes you did cause you knew me;

when i tried to hit hard you said "its me"
you a woman who knew what she wanted;
you defeated me in the battle of love;
i was sure that i was strong but before you i was not;

why do you come to face me;
i thought i will never see you;
but you always come back like a summer rain;
it remembered me when i met in the sun-a- train;
yes you defeated me a lot;
in the matters of the heart you did;