who am i?

i cried is enough;
my eyes are sore and painful;
i hate to realise that i lost my faith;
i hate to understand that i lost myself;
who i am is not me for myself i'm far way from me;

i wanted to know my destiny;
i needed to know my believe;
my ways always lead me to shame;
my utterance make me a loompant;
my friends and enemies bond because of me;

who am i not to know myself;
some said i'm a creation of God;
others said mahommed is my father;
while others say that i'm of hindu by blood;
who am i for i dont know myself.

i tried

i tried but i failed;
yes i did give it my all yet i failed;
my ghost is so heavy;
i lost the last bone of hope;
i thoght i'm togher than the tough;

i looked up and tears ran down my cheeks;
my voice was vey silent to others;
but i was crying inside with a loud cry;
my head felt to big for me;
yes i tried to be the best i could be;

yes i never faked myself;
the i was impeded by the calamities of life;
some said i am a fool;
i hope i will be who i want to be one day.

when it rained

I loved the smell of it;
Maybe because I was in your arms;
I lost myself in the emotional wilderness;
Your touch moved my heart to my right, left and centre;
My whole life changed in a moment;

I refused to be convinced but I failed myself;
I thought I’m tough and strong but you weakened me;
How nice is to feel what I felt;
How blessed is to walk without feet;
How marvelous is to fly without wings;

All this happened when it rained;
In your arms I never wanted to leave;
For you are never sour;
For me you’re a perfect match;
For I saw you in the foundation of my life;
With you I want to grow old;


Your humbleness and long legs turn me wild;
Whenever I see you I want hold and kiss you;
I struggle to sleep without you soft lips
I always want you time and time again;
It rained more and more;
I held you bone to bone;
Pelvic to pelvic;

You told me nothing more satisfying than when it rained;
I smiled for I was happy and so you did the same;
I was sure that about what you are doing to me;
I loved it but more I loved you;
Thanks for the good food;
It rained and it rained on me.